Just Breath

I am starting to get a little worried. I have so much congestion in my lungs now. It still seems to be in the top bronch space but it is getting harder to cough it up and I can't sleep for very long now. I need to hold on for one more week till we have health care coverage on me but I do not feel very good. I keep tellling people I am ok but I did not get to bed till 2 am last night and at 7:30am I just could not lay down anymore. I have been coughing for the last 30 minutes straight and feel like my breathing is shallow and wheezy. At least I am not dizzy this morning, I have been in the past and I know that is a sign of low oxygen. I want to get healthy this year. I want to lose weight and feel better but I need a good doctor to help me. I want someone to give me a low dose of thyroid medicine, my thyroid is in the normal range but just barely. The range for normal is huge, 3.4 down to .9. I am usually at 1.1 so I am very low, I think a jump start to my thyroid would start the weight loss program and give me the energy I need to get going. Then this summer when Josh is feeling better I want to have a hysterextomy (boy that is spelled bad) If I can loss weight and get that done I think I will feel so much better and maybe be ok here. I am so afraid that Gordon will do great in his job and I will just not be able to hack this climate. I know that is why I feel bad, it is always so damp here. Hot and moist, cold and wet. Never dry. Oh well, I will get by, I always do. Meantime back at the ranch, Gordon is sleeping with Rachel this morning because I am making so much noise in bed. It is funny to see him curled up in the back of her full size bed trying not to wake her while she is spread out.