Pieces of My Heart

I am so touched by this video. First I can hear the father. I am sure when the calf was injured that the little boy pleaded for his life and the father said they would watch it overnight but had to make a decision in the morning. How brave was that little boy to do what had to be done himself. I wish I could be as good a parent as that boy's must be. Sometimes I wish we could have a simple life like that family. I know that life on a ranch is hard but what basic truths are being taught through that way of life. How much could our children (or even ourselves) talk to God if there was less noise from the world and open skies to look up to the heavens. Also how wonderful that Logan was not ashamed or embarassed to say that God told him something. But the thing that touched me most was when the dj asked Logan if he was going to be ok and he said oh, I'll be allright. I could not help thinking of Joshua...... What perfect faith of a child, I know Josh will be alright but I am the one who is frightened. I can't even explain how that tears at my heart, the acceptance of what is and will be. I spend so much time fighting and worrying about what I can not change and I can't seem to let go.

Mostly I fear that I will not have the strength of Logan to let go and do what I have to. Even small problems like the one we are dealing with now (see the other blog) are more than I can bear. I am heartbroken for Joshua and just can't stop thinking about the last thing Logan said. He told them to RUN to Him. It is truly the only way to survive our broken hearts in this life. The only one who gets it is waiting for us to come to him and he will take our hands. I hope that this video reminds us all of our savior and where to turn when life is tough. I know I would have fallen apart by now without him. I know that my broken heart is in is hands and he has all the pieces.