The Beginning

There really is no beginning. I am not even sure I am going to tell anyone about this blog at all. I just want to write about my life so I can try to make sense of it somehow.

I am the mother of 5 children, the oldest is 9 and the youngest is 3. We have moved to 2 different states in the last 2 years. We have been through a blizzard, tornadoes, and a hurricane during these moves. My husband has been out of full time work for 2 years and just got a great job! We adopted 4 of our 5 kids so we have some special challenges, oh and did I mention, our oldest has medullablastoma brain cancer.

I was not kidding, weird things happen to us. Mostly we are ok and very blessed but our friends tell us if we didn't have bad luck we wouldn't have any luck at all. I hope to write some fun things here and maybe some sad ones too. I need to say how I feel without worrying about how it makes someone else feel. Alot of the time I don't know how I really feel. Sometimes I am fine and sometimes I feel overwelmed with pain, I can't stop it. I never used to cry but now I find myself crying at odd times. The first time I saw the walmart commercial for Christmas this year I burst into tears (that is just goofy). I have impressions in my heart that frighten me and I think if I tell people they will think I am crazy.

Well this is the place! I vow to write it all here. I want to say what I feel and think and mean. I will hopefully make you laugh more than I make you cry and only make you think I am crazy a little.